PhotographAll the world is waiting for the sunAnd all you can think about is teaCovered in sugarDipped in dreamsHow very like youPink allowancesBut only this timeImagination like the rainPonderings in goldYou all know i like the snowI dream to you knowEven the rain and snowWhite diamonds soft or harshDisasters lead to beautyPalms laid out to dryAll the world is waiting for the sunAnd all you can do is dreamIt's all I can doNot to dream about you
RememberWhenever I need a reminder of how you love me.Or how great our marriage is.Or how happy I am in life.I'll just replay your message.And pretend some more.
HurtWhen I found youLying in the snowBruised BrokenPainted greyI was hurtPainted flowers on the cielingNever knowing what they would tell youThinking I would never be alone againI was wrong
Em PointsEm PointsMy leg gave outI loved milkIce cream and freeziesOld high school injuriesThat apparently didn't heal wellFoot rubs – so sore!Nine o'clock curfewBooks books booksSide salad dammitNO C'PlusHot bathsNew showsAlways resort to flip flopsCrackers didn't work shitGravol MaternaFolate acidViolently illBlah flax seed oilNever againAnd you can take that anyway you likeStretch marksFuck
ExcusesHeat of sensationBurning on my wristsProtection among thievesCould you believeStealing fireAmong broken stringsAmong gods of legendsWhat did you believeInfamous whoreLending your lifeFeeding their guiltRisking allTo remain weakInaudibleWastedI understandWhat you never couldAnd I hateWords unspokenBlame for reasonsSilver inflationTemporary reliefTo what you need to understandTo believe
Memior - The Event ItselfOn August 31 I was 3 days overdue and had just gone to a doctor's appointment. He had asked me to get an ultrasound at 3 at the hospital. Wolfy and I went to the hospital with full intentions of going grocery shopping afterward (which I may still have that list kicking around). During the ultrasound we could not detect much movement at all from you so I went upstairs to have a fetal stress test done. Doctor's like to see a test of 8/8, you scored 4/8. Doctor took this as a sign that you need to come out so the decision was made to induce labor. Official start time of my labor started at 8 pm, though I am pretty sure I was feeling contra